on the crossroads...

surprised? me too. sa totoo lang, wala talaga akong planong magsulat ng entry ngayon, or any time soon for that matter. gusto ko sana kasing magpahinga, not just from blogging but from everything, from the stressful and high demands of acads, sa pressure of heading an org, sa mga expectations ng pamilya at ng mga kaibigan. why am i not happy? naramdaman mo na ba yun? something's missing at hindi ko mahanap kung ano yun. i have heard of people experiencing these things but d*mn, they are in their late adult life. i shouldn't be worrying about these kind of things. i should be out there, enjoying life and experiencing what the world has to offer.
i don't know...
i am lost...
please.. find me.

salamat sa lahat ng patuloy na nagbabasa ng aking blog. at first, it felt weird for me to be so open about my life sa blog na ito, sa inyo. pero na-realize ko, strangers make the best confidant. why? strangers won't judge, and even if they did, you won't care so much.
sa aking mga parekoy at virtual friends, salamat. you keep me sane. i'll be in touch with you soon. give me a couple of days to snap out of it.

why?

why not?

wait for you

sometimes love is over-rated...
there are no music waiting for playback each time you have a moment with someone,
no fireworks each time you kiss,
and i'd be damned if it always ends in happily ever-after.

but wouldn't you give anything just to find "the one?"
the one person who would make you believe in happy endings...
the one person who can make your heart beat faster and slower at the same time...
the one person who you could stare at each day and make you believe that maybe "happily ever after" does exist and that fantasy is just a step away from reality?

musikero sundays is proud to present a love song like no other. interpreted by a relatively unknown singer who i can only describe as a diamond in the rough. ladies and gentlemen, i give you robbie navarro with his version of wait for you

video courtesy of mobsycoi

wait for you

I've never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you and I'm wishing you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go
You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone

Girl you could have stayed but you wouldn't give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more than I can stand
And all my tears they
Keep runnin' down my face
Why did you turn away

[Interlude]
So why does your pride make you run and hide
Are you that afraid of me
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you want it to be

[Chorus]
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I'll wait for you

Been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You gotta me feeling crazy
(crazy)
How can you walk away
(When)
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby

What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is and it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me
You're still in love with me
Don't leave me crying

Baby why can't we just, just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance
I can love you right
But you're telling me it won't be enough

[Chorus]
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I'll wait for you

[Interlude]
So why does your pride make you run and hide
Are you that afraid of me
But I know it's a lie
What you're keeping inside
That is not how you want it to be

Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it's the last thing I do

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I'll wait for you

I'll be waiting...

2010 is my year... deal with it!

oh yeah. 2009 has finally ended and gave way for my year... 2010. why, you ask? well.. why not? i just kicked 2009's *ss and i'm hungry for more(evil laugh with a hint of naughty.) haha. so, to officially kick off my year, i'm listing down 5 things i'm leaving behind and 5 things i'm keeping for that *ss-kicking i'm talking about.

i am leaving...
1)laziness... rest in peace you sick b*stard.
2)binge eating... not good for my tummy, looks, and apparently my wallet.
3)pornograpy... ok, maybe not totally. baby steps people!
4)poor hygiene... the less you know, the better. haha.
5)binge eating... oh, did i already list it? then this one is for emphasis! haha

i am keeping...
1)my smile... sometimes a great smile can take you places, it can even save your *ss at times. i got references to prove it! haha
2)innocence of youth... an individual is happiest in his early childhood. why? three words people... innocence. diapers. barney!
3)music... it makes the people, come together. yeah.
4)my blog... corny as it may sound, my blog and my alter-ego nightcrawler has given me so much pleasure and i'm quite sure, at one point, it saved me from total insanity.
5)my family and friends... it's always nice to know that you're back is covered. thanks guys.

to everyone who has been a part of my 2009, thank you. i'm inviting you again this year as a new saga begins.

oh, and by the way, our outreach program was a success. sorry i can't post any pictures as we were asked not to. thank you to all the generous people who have supported our worthy cause and may the joy and giving spirit live on even after the holidays. good job everyone.

babala... masiyadong mahaba!

bago ang kung ano pa man, gusto kitang batiin ng maligayang pasko. sana'y nadama mo ang saya ng araw na ito at sana'y hindi mo nakalimutan kung ano ang sinisimbulo nito. ok... back to the hard part. haay... ang hirap talaga pag ang tagal mong nawala sa pagba-blog kasi di mo alam kung saan mo sisimulan ang pagku-kuwento. ang dami nang nangyari sa loob ng halos isang buwan kong pagiging ulirang estudyante at modelong mamayan ng lipunan. at dahil diyan, naisipan kong gumawa na lamang ng listahan para naman organized(sana) at wala akong makalimutang mahalagang kaganapan sa buhay ko. ok, heto na. ladies and gentlemen, mga parekoy, i-off na ang mga cell phones, patayin muna ang tv, maghanda ng merienda, at mag-cr na muna... dahil sa susunod na mga minuto ay inyo nang mababasa ang buhay at adventures ni nightcrawler sa buwan ng disyembre!

1. Acads... heto na ang malupit. sa loob ng mahigit isang buwan na pagbabalik ko sa klase ay mahigit isang buwan din akong walang tulog! haaay... maswerte na ang tatlong oras na pag-pikit na mga mata ko sa isang araw. sh*t na malagkit!(ano daw?) hehe. ang dami kasing mga propesor na galit sa mga buhay nila kaya kami ang napag-buntunan. ang dami kong sinulat na papers, ang daming long quiz sa iba't ibang subjects, may ilang mga exams na tapos na at may ilan namang exams ang salubong sa aming pagbabalik eskwela sa susunod na taon. o di ba? kung hindi ba naman torture ang tawag diyan ay ewan ko na lang. haha. nga pala, hindi ko pa alam iyong grade ko doon sa survey namin... next year ko pa malalaman. salamat ulit sa mga tumugon sa aking survey. i'm so touched(with matching tears pa yan ha.) siguro kung ire-rate ko ang performance ko sa klase sa nakalipas na isang buwan, above average siguro. uy, mataas na yun ha. di pa ako nale-late pero dalawa na ang absent ko. hehe. for those who know me well, alam kong pinapalakpakan niyo na ako dahil nagawa kong hindi ma-late sa mahigit na isang buwan ng klase. achievement yan! haha.


2. Pasiklaban... i was suppose to blog this earlier kaso ang daming kinailangang gawin eh(in short, tinamad! haha.) for those of you who are unfamiliar with pasiklaban, annual event siya sa school na ginaganap bago magbakasyon for christmas. from the name itself, nagpapasiklaban hindi lang mga estudyante kundi pati ang mga profs din. anyway, itong taon yata ang pinaka-boring na event in recent years. nothing exciting, lahat expected na kaya pagkatapos ng oblation run ay madami na rin ang umalis. my friends and i went to a restaurant where they serve the biggest chicken i have ever seen. mukha talaga siyang genetically modified. ganun kalaki. pagkatapos, tumambay na lang kami sa isang bahay at nagpa-kornihan at nagtakutan hanggang madaling araw. fyi, oblation run is the ultimate expression of freedom. and speaking of freedom... here i am at my free-est moment

(first pic) in the middle (second pic) left

3. Organization... i've been a part of this organization for the past two years at masasabi kong napaka-fulfilling ang maging parte nito. it's a regional org catering to the people of pangasinan. what we do is give service(quiz bees, out-reach programs, book drives, clean-up operations, etc...) to our kabaleyans. anyway, two weeks ago, we had a surprise election for the new set of officers. guess who won as the new president? kung kontra-bida ka, malamang na inisip mong hindi ako, pero dahil alam kong bida ka... tama ka, ako nga! and my first official project as the new president is... caroling. o di ba? siyempre may eksplenasyon yan. first, we need funds to supplement our outreach program(dec. 29) and for that one night of caroling alone, naka-kalap kami ng P8000. not bad huh? hindi lang ang outreach program namin ang magbe-benefit ng perang yun kundi pati na rin ang future projects namin. second, i needed an event to be a venue of connecting with the new and younger members of the organization. siyempre, sa dami ba naman ng bahay na kinantahan namin at pagkaing pina-lamon sa amin, nagkaroon na kami ng pagkakataon na magkakilanlan at magkaroon ng koneksyon(at kabag?) haha. needless to say, my first proposed project is a major success. next up, outreach program! ipagdasal niyo kami ha?

4. alam niyo ba na...
a) nasira nanaman ang aking phone? madami sana akong ipo-post na pics kaso nabura lahat. third time this year that it happened kaya pinag-iisipan ko nang bumili ng bagong phone. is samsung any good? sony erikson kaya?
b) anim na christmas party ang aking pinuntahan? kaya heto, bundat na bundat ang nightcrawler. i really need to go on a diet if i want my pants to fit again.
c) natutuwa talaga ako kapag nakakatanggap ako ng unexpected gifts? salamat sa mga nagbigay ng kanilang mga munting regalo. at dun sa nagbigay ng mini planner, don't worry, i'm using it now. salamat :P
d) magpo-post sana ako ng voice recording? kaso nasira nga ang phone ko kaya next time na lang. sayang... maririnig niyo na sana ako kumanta. hehe. next time na lang.
e) i cook a mean pasta alfredo? yup. it was the first food to be out-of-stock during one of the parties i went to. siyempre secret ang aking "magic" ingredient. hehe.
f) hindi talaga ako yung naka-hubad sa picture? haha. got'cha!