Oct 27, 2010

breaking free



i'm having butterflies in my stomach again. it happens everytime i have to do something that i really don't want to do, or if i missed a meeting with "doro." haay... it is so easy to be happy, but getting everyone to be happy for you is another thing. i mean, for the first time in a really long time I am finally doing something that is good for me... something that makes sense for the path i want to take. It may look and sound like a crazy decision on my part but i feel like that's what I've been missing all my life. I have been sheltered and protected... even to a point that my life has become "our" life. well guess what, i am taking charge of my life. it may not be my best decision, it may even turn out to be a big mistake... but i know that this is a mistake i have got to commit. whatever the consequences of my actions will be are mine to be responsible for... and if they care for me as much as they say they do, then they would be there for me, cheering me on or giving me comfort. I am tougher and braver than what they give me credit me for. maybe this time, it's not me who needs the help...

i just wish i'm as brave in words as i am in my actions. someday i'll be able to tell them all these and more, but not today... maybe when they don't see me as a helpless little child anymore, or when they grow ears :(

14 comments:

  1. Hmmmm magliive in na ba kayo?! o magpapakasal ka na?! something about living anywhere except home?! hehehehehehe

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  2. Anu man yan par na malaking desisyon mo sa buhay mo, Gudluck and always pray to Him for guidance... saka nandito kaming mga kaiblog mo for support...

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  3. wow magsosolo na ata... apir jan bro... dudluck sa life ng independent... hahahaha

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  4. you're braver than you think you are.
    goodluck :)

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  5. @xprosaic well, not really... although sometimes i would like to get away... but no. something way deeper :(

    @mokong salamat parekoy. that means a lot. if ever you're in pangasinan, sabihin mo lang... itu-tour kits! cheers!

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  6. @kikomaxxx well, not really... atleast not yet.

    @miles thank you. i know that now :P

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  7. //Cue music "I Want To Break Free" by Queen.

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  8. good luck sa anumang desisyon na gagawin mo. ang ganda ng picture, biglang may tumagos sa puso ko pagkakita sa imahe na iyon.

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  9. Parekoy ganito lang yan...nakakatakot pag di mo pa nasusubukan...but once ur there, hahanap hanapin mo ang excitement hehehe...kaya go lang ng go wag matakot! sa laki mong yan? peace bro!

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  10. mali glentot. sa highschool musical dapt. breaking free...

    godbless parekoy :)

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  11. Courage is doing what you're afraid to do. There can be no courage unless you're scared.


    Happy Halloween!
    Boo! m__(-_-)__m

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  12. @glentot akala ko, "maalaala mo kaya!" bwahahaha

    @jinjiruks salamaty parekoy. that was taken a year ago yata sa mt. kabuyao. muntik na akong mahulog diyan. hehe

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  13. @jag haha. oo, malaki ako kaya humanda ka sa akin, dadaganan kita! bwahaha.

    @mots haha. kailangan ko pa ng partner para kantahin yan. saka, glee na uso ngayon, hindi na hsm. hehe.

    @fielkun tama. happy halloween din sayo parekoy. medyo dumadlang posts mo ah. magsulat ka nga! hehe. demanding?

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  14. Gudluck. Watever decision you choose.. just pray .. Nice blog

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