samu't saring kuwento 5: love and hate

I really don't get women. Sometimes, they fight for gender equality, sometimes they want special treatment. For example, whenever i'm on a line for a bus ticket or cafeteria, ladies would sneak in on the line and wouldn't give a damn about it. One time, i have waited an hour in a line and this girl came in front of me and declared, "pasingit ha?" take note, declared! not asked! pinag-isipan ko pa talaga kung ngingitian ko o sasakalin ko eh. maybe i'll do both next time...

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sabi nila, your friends are those who stick with you during your worst.. and that's true. but it's your job as their friend to avoid getting them into sticky situations. i mean, wouldn't it be nice to have them around at your best? kahit minsan lang.. para maiba naman.

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People will always say things about you. Sometimes good. sometimes bad. sometimes made-up. Let them talk. Have pity on those people who have nothing going on for themselves that they have to talk about other people who actually experience life.

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I haven't slept in a week because i finally discovered the link to Boy Meets World. The entire show has 7 seasons, and somehow, i have managed to finish 3 seasons(25 episodes each season) in just seven days. and that's not even the weird part... I cried like five times over this show, and it's comedy! i don't know if it's sleep deprivation or just a clear indication that i am losing it!

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kuya limwell, ako, allan, kuya francis

wala namang istorya sa kanila.. namimiss ko lang talaga tong mga mokong na to. it sucks... the minute you say, "wag kang mag-alala, walang magbabago," the opposite happens. hmmm... i should definitely put this on my to-do list while I'm 21, get these guys together again... kahit kaladkarin ko pa sila. nyahaha.

breaking free

i'm having butterflies in my stomach again. it happens everytime i have to do something that i really don't want to do, or if i missed a meeting with "doro." haay... it is so easy to be happy, but getting everyone to be happy for you is another thing. i mean, for the first time in a really long time I am finally doing something that is good for me... something that makes sense for the path i want to take. It may look and sound like a crazy decision on my part but i feel like that's what I've been missing all my life. I have been sheltered and protected... even to a point that my life has become "our" life. well guess what, i am taking charge of my life. it may not be my best decision, it may even turn out to be a big mistake... but i know that this is a mistake i have got to commit. whatever the consequences of my actions will be are mine to be responsible for... and if they care for me as much as they say they do, then they would be there for me, cheering me on or giving me comfort. I am tougher and braver than what they give me credit me for. maybe this time, it's not me who needs the help...

i just wish i'm as brave in words as i am in my actions. someday i'll be able to tell them all these and more, but not today... maybe when they don't see me as a helpless little child anymore, or when they grow ears :(

The brother is APPARENTLY a PIG!

Flattery(webster's dictionary)> insincere or excessive praise.
Flattery(nightcrawler's "made up" dictionary)> is the best cover-up/introduction for an insult.

we may have done it once or twice, may it be for something that is brought about by a good intention or something that is brought about by "politeness." here are some scenarios...

Scenario1> mom is not happy about son's weight gain: "alam mo anak, ang pogi mo... pero mas pogi ka nung payat ka. mag-diet ka nga! ang taba mo na!"

Scenario2> friend worried about lending his jacket to someone: "iyong isa na lang ang hiramin mo... mas bagay yun sayo. mas malaki!"

Scenario3> sister accompanies brother in fitting room: "ang ganda ng kulay, bagay sayo! pero huwag na lang iyan ang bilhin mo, may nakita akong large sa kabila!"

sugar-coating insults don't make them less painful... it actually makes them worst. but thankfully, i'm a dude. this is where boys being trained not to listen finally pays off!
"i'm tubby now, and i like it!" is what i would say if i am that someone but i am not. i'm not. nope. not really. hmpft!


cartoon version of me?

image taken from http://www.comicvine.com/tubby/29-2976/

samu't saring kuwento 4: may gatas pa sa labi

apat na araw na akong hindi lumalabas ng bahay. it's frustrating, due mostly to the fact na puwede naman akong lumabas kung gugustuhin ko. i feel like a prisoner of my own doing, bilanggo ng katamaran. haay... i have bed soars all over my body, nakakapagod din ang sobrang pahinga. maybe it's the right time to start exercising again.
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i really don't want any of my friends or family to read my blog. It's not because I have something to hide but I feel like this is one part of me that I would rather have as "mine." I know it sounds weird given the fact that this blog is public and is open for anyone with internet connection but my blog serves as a haven where my thoughts are suppose to be exposed without inhibitions and I'm afraid that them knowing about this blog would subconsciously make me filter my writing. Do you have that feeling as well?
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i'm finding it hard to complete my list of 21 things to do while i'm 21. I am stuck at number 17. Fudge! it shouldn't be this hard.. can i count "Finish this list" as number 17? will that be considered cheating?
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when will moms get it that dinner is not the right time for sermon? sa dinami-dami ng reklamo at hinaing, ang naalala ko lang ay, "tumatanda na rin kayo, paano ka makaka-hanap ng girlfriend kung di ka lumalabas ng bahay?" huwaw... muntik na akong mabilaukan. sige po ma, masunurin naman akong anak eh. pahinging pang-date?! pinapa-migay na kami ni ate? bata pa naman ako ah!? may gatas pa ako sa labi...

ngek... alak na pala nasa labi namin. hehe.

samu't saring kuwento 3: boy meets world

i want to write but words seem to evade my fingertips right now. i mean there are a lot of things going on about me right now but i'm finding it hard to type it all down and put into words. does it count as writer's block? i don't know but i think i owe it to myself to finish this post and write about something as my reward for staring at this damn monitor for the past three hours now. ok.. where to start?!... uhm... oh, i'm almost done with my list of 21 things to do while i'm 21. it's a lot harder than i thought but if i want to get started early and accomplish all of it in a year, i should put more effort into it. what else?! uhm... i'm kind of in a weird situation with some of my close friends. you see, i was told that sometimes friends forget how to act around each other after they have been apart for so long, and i guess in most cases that's true. but i don't want it to be weird around me and a friend.. i mean, we've been through so much and i don't want to see it all go to waste just because we couldn't get past this. how do you get into the friendship groove again? and i was told that my being close with a lot of people is becoming a problem... i don't know. am i really becoming a friendship slut? is such term really existing? haay... i'm also sad about leaving my friends and my organization. i'm not even sad about leaving the school but leaving them? it's devastating. how weird is it that just a week ago i was in a state of happiness and a week later, devastation? i'm beginning to think that i have multiple personalities, although i hope not.
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during my elementary days, even before my obsession with FRIENDS, i was hooked by BOY MEETS WORLD. it is a show about, well... a boy meeting the world! haha. it was a good show and i remember loving the show so much that i was devastated when it ended. i don't care about what others say but i really do believe that it was about me and that my life is patterned after cory matthews' life... i'd meet someone, be head-over-heels in love, have amazing friends and family, and live happily ever after. if only life is that easy... does anyone know if the show is on dvd? if you have the copy, give it to me... i'll give you big bucks!
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matagal na akong di nakakapag-blog hop. i have been so busy this past week na hindi ko na nasusubaybayan ang mga buhay ng mga paborito kong bloggers. after the mass mamaya, i'd spend the whole night reading and back-reading your posts.. i am so much behind already. yung iba pa naman diyan tatlo hanggang limang beses sa isang linggo kung mag-update ng blog nila. ok... i have to get ready now. may date pa kami ni Lord... pasasalamatan ko pa siya for everything sa buhay ko. talk to you in couple of hours , ' )

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